A Blogger Suicide

Weasel Zippers has the link to a blog in which the blogger apparently left a suicide note on his blog. Ronbo of The Freedom Fighter’s Journal:

THE ULTIMATE SACRIFICE

I understand the ______ building is more than 150 feet tall. At the time of my last recon I noticed easy access to the roof that would allow someone to leap to their death to the parking lot below. I’m not an expert in these matters, but if I recall from my physics classes in college at 100 feet a falling object reaches a speed of about 100 MPH. This means that the falling man would hit the pavement at a speed great enough to cause instant death. I understand that over the years since the construction of this building several persons have died by jumping from this structure.

I plan to make such a leap. I do this in memory of the several hundred victims on 9/11 who jumped off the World Trade Center as a means of avoiding burning to death, and the over 3,000 American soldiers killed fighting Islamofascism in Iraq and Afghanistan. A parallel reason is a protest against the American Left and the Democrat Party who have stabbed the Armed Forces in the back in the early stages of what is shaping up to be The Third World War.

I have no doubt the Leftist Media will spin my death as that of an insane man with few options left in life who killed himself in desperation. In fact, the objective investigator will notice no signs of depression on my part the last months of my life. I would describe myself as an idealist. I know this is a personality strange to many people who would say such a person is “unusual” or “crazy” or “a bit off.” The fact of the matter is that the actions of many people that were described as heroic happened because they were idealists who chose death rather than selling out what they hold to be sacred. In my case I cannot allow myself to continue to live in a world that is largely indifferent to a neo-pagan religion called Islam that in league with Leftist appeasement and multiculturalism, and seems on the fast track to destroy the United States and Western Civilization.

What I did is not suicide. It is the action of a patriot and idealist who loves God and Country, and who makes a very public statement as a warning of a New Dark Age that looks America straight in the face armed with a hideous ideology that makes the German Nazis or Russian Communists look like bleeding heart liberals. I hope my fellow Countrymen will rally once gain in the defense of liberty no matter how long and hard the struggle.

Weasel found the obit:

RONALD BARBOUR, age 47, passed away Feb. 19, 2008. Beloved son of Marleen (nee Puckett) and the late Ronald; father of Brandy Szachkas; dear brother of Deborah Phillips (Douglas), Robin Lynn Barbour, Michael W., Richard Alan (Teri) and Tonya Phillips (Rodney); loving uncle of 11. Funeral Service Sunday, Feb. 24 in the CORENO FUNERAL HOME, 13115 LORAIN AVE. AT 8:00 PM. Family will receive friends SUNDAY, 2-4 and 6-8 PM 216-941-3434

It appears from reading the whole note that the man has had a troubled life. Either way, it’s a waste.

RIP Ronbo.

UPDATE

A commenter noticed something was amiss on the post prior to this suicide note:

After reading your link to the post about Waltzing Matilda I grew to be very concerned for you. I found the contents disturbing. I also found the cartoon at The Freedom Fighter’s Journal unsettling. I couldn’t help but feel that you are feeling extremely low, and possibly quite depressed about the world situation. If you are, I completely understand this as both my husband and I frequently get so frustrated and disillusioned by the damage being done to our country that we also find ourselves depressed. For someone like yourself who has served his country, the frustration must be even greater. The Christmas season is particularly difficult for those of us who realize the threat Islam poses in our society, and we grow even more depressed and concerned about the future for the next generation.

You have obviously made some very serious decisions regarding shutting down your blog, and hitting the road. I don’t know if this has been part of your plans for sometime, or if the Christmas season has provoked such decisions. Obviously, all of this is absolutely none of my business. But, I simply couldn’t let you disappear into the sunset without some discussion. I want you to know if you are in a serious depression, I am here for you if you need to talk. My husband has struggled with depression all of his life. There is nothing to be ashamed of. If you are feeling so desperately low that you may be considering suicide please talk to me. My Mother had a very serious suicide attempt, so I do understand and have some insight into that area. Life is challenging at the best of times. But in these past years it has become almost unbearable. Everywhere we look we are being attacked. The very people who are supposed to protect us and our democracies are in bed with our enemies. Everything we hold dear is being thrown to the trash. Nothing is sacred anymore. Consequently, sinking into an extremely low depression is understandable for those of us who care.

Ronbo, again I say that none of this is my business, and I apologize if I have offended you. But, I want you to know that you are not alone, and there is someone who does understand and is here for you. Please talk to me. I know the world is rotten, and I too struggle with finding joy. Together we can get through this.

If I have completely misunderstood and misconstrued the contents of the Matilda post and the cartoon, please accept my sincerest apologies. But, please don’t disappear without contact.

And Gates of Vienna has a moving post about him. Dymphna delved into the blog quite a bit and found some signs that this man was going through some tough times.

I know men like Ronbo. Idealistic, wounded, and unable to stand any longer the slings and arrows…I pray they choose a different path, but who can know the mysteries of the human heart?

Here is the message I left at the Guest Book for the family. I hope that those of you who are moved by his story will go over and leave a word for those he left behind. The book will be available online for about a month.

I can tell you from experience that even though the family may not be able to take it in now, your words will be meaningful in the stillness that comes later.

That eternal stillness.

My deep condolences to all of you. Please know there was nothing further you could have done to prevent this.

I lost my daughter suddenly due to mental illness, and reading Ronbo’s last post we were concerned, but had no way to notify someone who knew him.

I think he was humiliated by the bureaucracy. Sometimes that can isolate someone so much they are lost to us.

My daughter was about younger than your son, but she was an adult. Her death, on May 8, 2003 has changed my life.

Know that you, especially Ron’s mom and child, are in my prayers…you are the ones who will have to find a way to forgive this…by realizing he could not help it.

Ronbo was on our blog roll and a member of the same organization we were.

If you want to talk to or email a mom who has gone through what you’re enduring, please contact me.

Curt

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